do you ever listen to your favourite band and think
"I love this band a lot"
Do you ever feel like you love/like something (a song) so much that every time you see them/it (LISTEN TO IT JEZAZ CRIST) you freak out or there is something in your chest that wants to come out but you have to keep it so you’re like conceal don’t feel don’t let them know? BECAUSE I DO.
I’ve been a fangirl since I was 12 and very emotional about everything. I don’t know I overreact with loving or liking something or someone (band members). I hate it but I love it. Wait, what? I hate my situation now, you know the irregular student thing because
- when I listen to a song of my favourite band I have to conceal the feelings
- I only know like 2 classmates per class and every time I react on a song they’re like “dafuq”
- I really freak out or shout when I like something and knowing that I am an irreg student and my classmate barely knows me, I have to keep calm.
I remember when I was in high school, my classmates and I know each other so well. I can fangirl every time and they’ll be like “he doesn’t love you” “he doesn’t even know you exist” “their music sucks” “he’s/they’re ugly” and I really didn’t care. Now, the people don’t know me and I don’t know them as well. The 2nd sem is almost over and I am not even familiar with the faces of half of the population of the classes I attend to. That’s why I go to tumblr or twitter to scream and shout and let it all out. Oh yeah deuces
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John Green (via lullabysounds)
I’m trying to be happy. But every time, I told myself that, things will happen that will certainly change my mood, affect my mind and will bring me back to sadness. I’m tired of this cycle, being happy for a minute and be sad for an hour. Why is the sadness longer than the happiness? Am I not worth it of being happy? I don’t want to be sad always. I want to be happy. I wanna be happy. When will I be happy, again?
I know that’s really dumb.[..] If I take selfies its usually because I’ve got ready too quickly, and then I’m like admiring my work I’m like ‘I did well with my hair today.’ therefore I’m going to take a little head-tilty head selfie and then I’m like, What are you doing Maisie, delete.”